A POEM FOR JEFF
MY POEM FOR JEFF
A broken soul so alone and lost, when a child falls through the cracks, so dear is the cost.
desperately in need of love, nobody to turn to, when push came to shove.
no longer able to cry, for inside he's beginning to die.
they said they saw emptiness when they looked into his eyes, i say no one looked deep enough, or paid attention to his cries.
so lost and alone, nobody to turn to, no place to call home.
to deny his true thoughts, so desperately he tried, but no matter where he went, from himself he could not hide.
the horrors in his mind he could never escape, they played over and over again, like a broken tape.
he lost himself in pornography and booze, fighting a battle he would ultimately lose.
in religion he looked for peace, but his demons just would not cease.
into his lap, out of the blue, an invitation landed, could it be true?
then a thought entered his mind, it's a conspiracy, a test of some kind.
he resisted temptation, in hopes of salvation.
but, the desire was so intense, as was the enticement of the suspense.
hanging by a single thread, trying to resist the thoughts inside his head.
a demon conquered so he thought, a sad delusion, so many battles yet to be fought.
he realized he was fighting a battle he couldnt win, he could fight no more, so he finally gave in.
after he saw what he had done, he was then convinced that the demons had won.
a soul can only be damaged so much, until with reality, it will totally lose touch.
desperately in need of a friend that wouldnt go, but a way to make them stay he did not know.
only for himself did he harbor any hate, to his fellow man, he simply could not relate.
when it was all over he felt relief, but, all was lost in his belief.
when they took him down he let out a yell, like a beast set free, all that was left was an empty shell.
when it all came down, crashing upon his head, all he said was, for what i did, i should be dead.
from society he was forever locked away, for what he did, he had to pay.
he returned to his faith and was redeemed, but not on earth, so it seemed.
too soon after the words were said, his wish was granted, and Jeff was dead.
at times when i need him the most, i look at myself and i see his ghost.
he said he felt he created a holocaust, i feel so much like him, a soul that is lost, lost, lost.
My UNCONDITIONAL LOVE ,MY DEEPEST DEVOTION, MY HEART, MY SOUL, TO JEFFREY LIONEL DAHMER, FOR ALL ETERNITY! MY HEART ACHES FOR YOU ,MY EYES WEEP FOR YOU, MY SOUL LONGS FOR YOU, MY BODY STARVES FOR YOU, I SEE, HEAR, FEEL, SMELL AND TASTE YOU. YOU ARE HERE, INSIDE OF ME, MY BEAUTIFULL,MY LOVE,, MY JEFF. I LOVE YOU